So I've been back from Maryland for a week now. The days spent up there were the happiest moments of my life. I finally got to kiss the girl of my dreams, a girl I've been fighting with myself over wondering if I would be able to hold her in my arms for almost a year now. It happened, and well, I feel good about it. There were a few mishaps at Otakon though, which made me wonder if I had done something wrong... like me thinking I lost my wallet and a few other things I can't really remember. One bad thing though... on Sunday of last week on our trip we stopped midway to Tennessee in Roanoke, Virginia for the night and for some reason I thought it would be a good idea to take my Hard Drive with me to the room. . . Everything was fine until that morning. I had little to no sleep, and we were being rushed out of the room. I left my beloved Hard Drive in there with my 30,000 songs and over 100 Gigabytes of unwatched Anime... along with various backups.

That, however, is the only bad part of the trip! The rest of the time spent up there was indescribably great!!! Friday was okay~ I got to see Jennifer, so I was happy. Saturday~ after not knowing she was there for half the day...... I finally got to see her. She was as beautiful as ever and we finally got some alone time. She pecked me on the lips while we were in the Dealer Room and I was in a daze for about 10 minutes. As the day went on I finally got her where we could share what I'll remember as the best kiss I'll ever receive. This kiss I'll never forget and every time I think about her, I think of this kiss. So we spent the rest of the night just hanging out and going to the random things around the convention center, then we decided to go to the Masquerade and the Rave... Hoo boy the Rave. I won't even go there. :3

So Sunday... the last day I got to see her and lovingly hold her in my arms. I spent all morning trying to get her and everyone else she was with up and out of bed... (Hehe I'm so impatient. :3) Until finally they got there and I saw them near Starbucks! So I ended up losing my friends (I'm evol :3) and spending the rest of the time with her as I could. We walked around for a bit and I took some more pictures... then we went into the AMV room... o3o Watched the AMVs and kissed... a lot. ;3 Eventually she was told they were leaving and we had to say our goodbyes. As hard as it was to say them, we misjudged how hard we would actually take it. I held her close in my arms and told her everything would be okay as I wiped her tears and kissed her. I'll never forget how stunned I felt after I had to be away from her... I'm still stunned to this day and I wonder if I'll ever be able to see her again under our current circumstances...

Of course not long before her father left on one of those days. o.O He invited me to go with them when they come to Tennessee. Where they are going is only a 2-3 hour drive from where I live. I love this girl more than anything in the world, but if all I can do is see her and act appropriately in front of her parents, I shall do so. I have no intention of causing Drama, and if i get told by her Father I can never see her again I will probably become clinically depressed, but I will respect him and respect his wonderful family.


P.S. I love you Jennifer!